14/5/2019 Tuesday
When we were trying for a child, but with no avail, I had resorted to reverse psychology. I had convinced myself that my life is a very happy one and I do not feel the need of a child in my life. I am going to enjoy my life, do whatever I want, roam around the world.....
And then you happened. And my world turned topsy turvy. The first month, when you were at home, i tried to be at your side always. And with all my reservations, i stayed at Mahim for almost 2 months, just to be with you. Going to work when you are awake is the most heart-wrenching thing I have ever done. Crowded trains were not a concern for me, as I was returning home to see you.
That day, when your mother told me that both of you are going to Swapna mavshi's place for 3 days, something just broke in me. I put up a brave face for your mother's sake, but just couldn't come to terms with the situation.
That morning when i went for work, you were fast asleep. Wanted to kiss u, hold u. But couldn't risk waking u up. Travelling to andheri in my taxi, everything outside seemed foggy, or maybe something in my eyes. Thank God, the day was long. Took lectures from 7 in the morning till 8 in the night. The train was crowded today or maybe just i felt it. Reached Dahisar, walked all the way home. Opened the door.....
'Daddachi Gompuli aahe ka?' Noone smiled back. Ur things were not there. Ur bed on the floor, ur bottles, ur nan-pro, ur clothes, ur toys. The house was empty. Something in me was empty.
Can't write any further. The screen is too foggy or maybe something in my eyes.
When we were trying for a child, but with no avail, I had resorted to reverse psychology. I had convinced myself that my life is a very happy one and I do not feel the need of a child in my life. I am going to enjoy my life, do whatever I want, roam around the world.....
And then you happened. And my world turned topsy turvy. The first month, when you were at home, i tried to be at your side always. And with all my reservations, i stayed at Mahim for almost 2 months, just to be with you. Going to work when you are awake is the most heart-wrenching thing I have ever done. Crowded trains were not a concern for me, as I was returning home to see you.
That day, when your mother told me that both of you are going to Swapna mavshi's place for 3 days, something just broke in me. I put up a brave face for your mother's sake, but just couldn't come to terms with the situation.
That morning when i went for work, you were fast asleep. Wanted to kiss u, hold u. But couldn't risk waking u up. Travelling to andheri in my taxi, everything outside seemed foggy, or maybe something in my eyes. Thank God, the day was long. Took lectures from 7 in the morning till 8 in the night. The train was crowded today or maybe just i felt it. Reached Dahisar, walked all the way home. Opened the door.....
'Daddachi Gompuli aahe ka?' Noone smiled back. Ur things were not there. Ur bed on the floor, ur bottles, ur nan-pro, ur clothes, ur toys. The house was empty. Something in me was empty.
Can't write any further. The screen is too foggy or maybe something in my eyes.
No comments:
Post a Comment